Thrust into the sun

He has a website dedicated to pictures of tacos. And someone perhaps took it a bit too seriously.
look at the entry for 8/28/09

http://henderob.com/ 

or:
http://henderob.com/taco_gallery.php  (for just the tacos)

OR just google "how to appreciate the art of photography"


Basically, that entry was a very in-depth and thoughtful analysis of the meaning behind tacos. 
Not sure if it was meant to be sarcastic, or not.  haha
(it was written by a fan, not by the photographer.)

I may actually fail CS61.

I don't like feeling angry.
But when you look back on the times you were happy and realize that even if you were misled, you were happy... you get angry at yourself for wishing you could fall back on those times again. Not ignorance per se, but the acceptance of not knowing, and the comfort of a cushioned reality.

Instead of confronting my problems, I just try to ignore them.

And it doesn't work.

It doesn't fucking work. But time goes by and my mind changes, constantly. With no resolve it's impossible to confront anything. It's a never ending loop of disappointment and disappointing others, that's what I've fallen into. And I am too weak to actually do something about it.

Ignoring your problems doesn't solve anything... but it buys you time.
I wonder when the last day will come.
I wonder if it will ever come.



Do I even want it?
Freedom...

Pokemon English Background Music

i will deny my childhood no longer.

I FREAKING LOVE TEAM ROCKET.

and little James is just SO PRECIOUS.





This is the episode where you meet James' parents xD
And Pokemon Tech is basically their version of MIT... it is just freaking awesome watching all the episodes in order... i finally get their jokes!

I could never wake up early enough to watch these on TV so guess what I'm doing now that I'm older? I watch them online, because I can.

=^D
lol that is such a weird face... it just happened by accident seriously.
i am in such a good mood right now, even though i still have like 6 hours of homework ahead of me... what is wrong with me? lol

what' sso scary about change anyway?

says the person who has been scared of it all her life.



otherwise known as, me.

so i stay awake at night, staring at my computer screen because i don't want to go to sleep. i don't want another day to pass in which i have accomplished nothing, and i don't want another day to come in which i must leave my nothingness to do nothing in particular.

DUDE. Look at David Sparks on the left, and French scientist Sadi Carnot (who invented the carnot engine in the 1800s)

are they twins?? or are they the same person??? lol
 and also, btw the skater is someone I know, he hasn't aged in like 10 years




omg even their ears are the same!! look at their ears!! lol


weeiirdddd.... i was reading my physics book and just wow.... xD

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/29/36759033_b1622bced2.jpg

this makes me nervous... what is Kermit watching??? lol


Happy B-day, Virginia!! =D

http://chikuto.deviantart.com/art/Are-You-Still-Watching-Me-122554728

SO ADORABLE. the title....

so, i started volunteering at the extension center to be an english tutor, and i realized... i love this a bajillion times more than i ever loved programming. it's kind of sad.
i don't know if it's going to wear off or not, but all i want right now is to keep learning another language, and one day be able to speak it. and i like helping other people work towards the goal i have for myself. i like meeting people who find languages interesting, too. i really like this volunteer thing...
what am i going to do with myself? am i going abroad now, or later? and what do i plan to do abroad? computers, or fun classes? lol
there is one program where i could do both, if my japanese was good enough. but i really doubt it would be, plus it would take another year or maybe more, and then it would just be even more stressful since i will still be behind...


i just want to enjoy my life instead of stressing every day. but i guess if i dont work at anything, i will be a lazy bum the rest of my life... i just wish there was a happy medium.



i'll have to write a song someday called "if only i were a hobo" lol

if i reach out too far, will i regret it? but then, does it matter if i regret it?
maybe there are things that must be done, either way...

so basically i'm afraid to be alone, and i'm afraid to ask for company.
     that's no way to live, and i know it-
          but that's all i've ever known.

[Edit]
actually, that's probably not true. I knew something else once, and I've been pursuing it ever since.

I AM SO SORRY!  i have been in a mood slump for some unknown reason and i have been ignoring my emails... i feel really bad... x_x
i still dont know what is wrong with me, but im not going to let it keep me down anymore... i can't take it! lol